when Sorry isn't enough.

I'm not a perfect person

There's many things I wish I didn't do

But I continue learning

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you

It's something I must live with every day

And all the pain I put you through

I wish that I could take it all away

And be the one who catches all your tears

That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

and the reason is you

Maybe you won't see this part...

but I have to tell you

that you are always in my heart

I swear its true.

I never meant to hurt you

to make your heart bleed for my wounds

I cannot forgive myself for my mistakes

the promise that I broke blindly

and the heart that broke with it

please give me a chance to change who I used to be and start over new...

or at least say...I'm sorry.

Happy 6 months anniversary!

The cake
xD

I don't know whether to cry at this because its ONLY been half a year...

or shout out loud "OMG CAN YOU BELIEVE ITS BEEN HALF A YEAR ALREADY!"


The last time I felt this way was at our 100th day milestone.. though perhaps not as exaggerated..


So we spent our One Hundredth and Eighty Second day at our familiar haunt again- Sunway Carnival Mall.


First thing first! Movie time! Arrived there just in time to catch Ninja Assasin!
Another movie spamming copious amounts of blood and gore and flying body parts while featuring wet suit clad Korean movie stars who seem impervious to MP5 bullets. I have to say I actually liked the movie much more before I watched it, simply because of the kick-ass trailer and the prospect of watching Rain play his role as Prince of Persia Korean style~


But okay... maybe I admit I was just uninterested in the movie because me and Kim were stealing the limelight in the cinema? You expect nothing less from 2 love birds in a couple seat in a veddy veddy cosy cinema :)


Thats right~ despite being the second day of its release, the cinema was almost empty. I think either New Moon or Mulan must have stolen a good deal of movie goers for being released on the same day as well lol? Blah...anyway couples can't complain about privacy can they? XD


Here are some pics of the movie:



Raizo the rouge Ninja Assasin! played by Rain~



That's his famous chain+blade weapon thingy. Niched for decapitating and slicing open your belly.



Familiar? Its the Prince of Persia! LOL!



See? XD



RAWR~~~~




Okay so back to the date! And after the movie~
Went to Amp Square again! yay!
I wasn't completely unprepared this time...Kim made sure I learned how to sing a few couple chinese songs (or rather scream them) beforehand. I loved every second of the 3 hours we spent in our own lil K box.
Yes every second! <3

Picked up how to sing on my favorite chinese songs there actually. One which I didn't know what the name was but craved so badly. Typical banana I guess?

Actually the name was 梁山伯与茱丽叶...haha.

lol wait...my font just changed after pasting the chinese words above wth...? oh well I'll just finish up this post like this then :D

Also I did manage to catch up with one of my old time favorites too...

Its called The Prayer , yet another beautiful Disney song which outlives the cartoon itself.. which in this case was Quest For Camelot. Long enough to be my current song craze XD!!

Here it is...Sung by Celine Dion and Andrea Bocelli.

(Italian to English Translation courtesy of Gideon)

I pray you'll be our eyes
And watch us where we go
And help us to be wise
In times when we don't know

Let this be our prayer
As we go our way
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your grace
To a place where we'll be safe

La luce che to dai
I pray we'll find your light
Nel cuore restero
And hold it in our hearts
A ricordarchi che
When stars go out each night
L'eterna stella sei

Nella mia preghiera
Let this be our prayer
Quanta fede c�e
When shadows fill our day
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your grace

Give us faith so we'll be safe.

Sognamo un mondo senza piu violenza (we dream a world without violence)
Un mondo di giustizia e di speranza (a world of justice and hope)
Ognuno dia la mano al suo vicino (everyone give a hand to his neighbour)
Simbolo di pace e di fraternita (symbol of peace and brotherhood)

La forza che ci dai (the force that gives us)
We ask that life be kind
E'il desiderio che (it is the desire)
And watch us from above
Ognuno trovi amore (that everyone finds love)
We hope each soul will find
Intorno e dentro a se (around and within a soul)
Another soul to love

Let this be our prayer
Let this be our prayer
Just like every child
Just like every child

Needs to find a place,
Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
E la fede che (and the faith)
Hai acceso in noi (you gave us)
Sento che ci salvera. (I feel that will save us)


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Before leaving the K, we cut our so called half year anniversary cake.
Took some pictures...
Made a wish...shhhhhhhhhh =X
Blew the candle...
And with that, we concluded our time at Amp Square...


As the day drew to a close, we spent out remaining time eating some hot rods at KFC...
and shared a few joyous and tearful moments in Living Cabin gift store before finally saying goodbye...again...


sigh...


Does this date conclude yet another magical holiday season I have here up north? I hope not...perhaps I would see her again during Christmas if I'm lucky.


Anywayz...its an extremely hot day and I feel the need to jump into the shower!


I shall now hand over this post to Kim for picture updates :)
ciao now!

Wuuvvvvv eeuuuuu <3

picture editor Kim ♥

6!

Hi guyz...time for a slightly backdated date post :D

so I'll get this over in a jiffy!

Its our sxth outing and we chose to spend it at Pacific once again XD

odd location given the obvious criticism I made last post? Don't ask why...

that day's activities go as follows lo...

go hang out in parkson awhile...your typical lepaking xD

because shopping not really on the agenda lol...=X

then we watched A Christmas Carol!

A story I always loved as a kid. But the movie was abit of a let down...guess because I was expecting it to be 3D...too bad PCF cinema didn't give 3D sun glases :(

Was even expecting a twist to the tale lol... but the story didn't differ much from Charles Dick's original...that is basically talking about how the stingy Ebeneezer Scrooge>>>

meeting 3 ghosts and miraculously transforming into Mr.Niceguy just in time for Christmas! :)>>>

Coming out of the cinema, looking at her watch, realised we still had 2 more hours together...

Deciding how to spend those last few minutes wasn't hard...rather the decision was made almost empathically...

That is....

Go for another movie LOL!

So we watched Astro Boy.

another cartoon which happy endings were expected...thus making it a perfect way to end another day together...yay :D

Well...thats it for my short post for yet another movie-date-athon!

I'll leave the picture editing to my dear beloved Kim <3

Brb with another date post soon! ciao all~

photo editor

kim ♥

Jusco and Pacific! Just terrific! xD

Its our fifth date and I SWORE I am NOT going to spend it at Sunway carnival!

So we pre-decided to take our little secret to Pacific mall (better known as the "megamall" up north) this time..

few things I learnt from going there early...

1. DON'T. Because the place is pretty rundown at some parts even on sundays! Dark corners everywhere! Spooky @.@! Also there are no mobile booths to top-up at too...

2. Make sure your date is fully awake before asking them out LOL! Or else you'll have to camp alone outside the cinema where it's almost pitch black @.@!!

3. Make sure you know your rendezvous point before wandering the mall alone. Especially since the "megamall" has NO LIFTS LOL! A long-winding-wooden-spiral stair in the middle of the mall was the best way to travel from one floor to another. All four floors! XD

4. Don't prepare a surprise point. She never fails to foil them and surprise me instead LOL! example: stalking my movements up the stairway. xD

Well overall... besides the fact the cinema has comfy and cosy couple seats... its a rather dull place to take your date out to?

Oh yeah! We watched 2012... pretty awesome show with a few cool computer graphic scenes here and there...storyline wise was okay I guess? your typical dooms day show plots and themes all along the way..or maybe I wasn't paying too much attention to the movie.. thats normal for me when we hang out XD

But guyz, don't let me discourage you... had no regrets watching the end of the world...seriously...3 more years to live peoples!!! DONT MISS ANY MOVIE NO MATTER HOW SUCKY IT IS LAHHH!?!?!? xDDD

Bah well...thank God we didn't have to wait another 170 days (or the 3 years) to switch to another mall...a MUCH BETTER ONE too! Took a 10 minute bus ride and...HElloooo Aeon Jusco Prai City!!!

Its a place where of you Klangians (like me) would feel right at home up north...besides looking 80-90% like the familiar Bukit Tinggi AJ, it houses about the same shops too...from Subzero to Secret Recipe and ofcourse...Jusco duhhhh -.-

A stark contrast to the dark and dingy Pacific...A.J.P.C. is a must go for all shopaholics and spendalotholics...as for me...was content on getting a new pair of shoes there for RM50... good deal :)

Note to self* Don't buy anymore shoes without Kim's consent...especially if they happen to be black! xD

Oh yeah...we had tunch (tea and lunch) at Black Canyon... over confidence lead to over spending on a RM 60 meal there..wheeeeeee.....Almost didn't have enough money to walk out of there without washing their dishes tim...wahahah... or making her slap me...huhuhu @.@!

Hmmm... spent our digesting time mostly patrolling jusco and avoid being spotted by each other's in-laws..LOL! shhhhhhhhhhh =x

Remind me to work another 9 days before I can afford a diamond ring! xP

Wokie I guess thats all for yet another update on my date! Kay ciaozz peoplesss....

I LOVE YOUUUU HONEYYYY.........

BUBUBU~~~

HAHAHAHA...<3

photo added plus edited by kim <3

CAMBRIGE A-S-Level EXAM IS OVER!!!!

WOOOHOOO! Finally I can spend my days in ways other than spilling my brains over law, economics and business books...or is it spilling their contents into my brain? o.0 Bahhh...Either way is bad for health XD

So yesterday was my last paper...Economics paper 1...relatively simple objective paper of 30 questions... such an anti-climax to the exam spree...tsk tsk tsk...

Anyway I'm glad its done and over with..and so begins another little self-declared holiday of mine...and what better way to spend it than with my her? Will be seeing her this sunday if all goes well I guess. God speed! I can't wait to see her again...its been well over 2 months since I we last saw each other and a little something inside me is just dying to feel her warmth embraced in mine...

Only time will measure the incomprehensible length of our longing for each other.

See you soon honey...<3

Well...I bid farewell (for now) to my other commitments as I embark on yet another expedition of adventures with my love. Will be leaving tomorrow at noon. Sooner to break free of those chains, the better :)

[LOTHAR]ians, Hold your positions!

I have not abandoned you! Infact I look forward to reorganising the [LOTHAR] blog due to the sudden increase in clan name publicity and requests to join our clan. Also since I am unable to play during the 3 weeks while I'm gone, it is only fair that I contribute in what way I can by ensuring [LOTHAR] is still a strong (if not now stronger) force to be reckoned with. Especially the pressing possibility of yet another war with the Novas.

[LOTHAR]KilY, later delegate some power to me to maintain blog yeah :D

As for my musical side... looks like I'll be bringing this ol' buddy along to Penang after all. The coming GuitarCamp-Frazer's Hill 2009 requires that I give a little solo performance during camp this December.. which, somehow gives me the feeling that this little vacation might not be much a holiday after all, as I have only 3 weeks to practice practice practice!

Oh yes, and before I forget, I'd like to invite all who are fans of the classical guitar to the Putera Concert this December 9th at the Malaysian Tourism centre. Ticket prices are RM80 a seat, discounted to RM 50 if you wish to book more than 2 seats. It's a concert by 3 international guitarists and a rare chance to watch the pros in action! Check out the poster!

Click on the this link to find out more :)

For all my guitar buddies who ARE going to camp. Please be sure to get your tickets for FREE and don't be shy to ask our sifu about it! XD

Right....

I guess that's all for my sudden revival post.

Stay tuned for more stories from up north to come!!!

HaPpY 100th DaY aNniVeRsAry!!!

Its amazing how time flies...

In a twinkle of an eye *pooof!* a hundred days have flown by since that fateful day when I held her hand in mine and she nodded to me and said "en"...

Looking back at our past days have always given me great joy. Remembering all the times when we talked, laughed together, cried together and the rare moments we held tightly in each others arms...It always makes me feel lucky to think that I've shared so many hours, days (and nights), weeks and months-hopefully years- with someone whom I truly love and cherish, knowing that she feels the same way too. Just thinking of that itself, makes me smile :)

I do not deny that a hundred days may be only a small step in our long journey, and that many others have gone through alot further than where we now stand. Yet I am proud to say these were the happiest days of my life. Happiness only possible, because You were the warmth in my sunrise every single day, and my own little star shinning for me every night. Though the distance may be far, my heart still beats with joy as if you were beside me everyday.

AT this point I can only think of more wonderful days to come as we write the pages of our life together. Let each dawn be a new chapter and each foot stop a goodnight kiss. True no one can tell how many are our days numbered, but I'll hold you till the end of mine. And I'm sure we can make our love story a happy ending!

Well...I have to go prepare for my concert now. I'll blog about this later. Hopefully I'll get to put up a few pictures, though no guarantee of videos.

NOTHINGS GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU! <3

If I had to live my life without you near me

The days would all be empty

The nights would seem so long

With you I see forever oh so clearly

I might have been in love before

But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young

And we both know they'll take us

Where we want to go

Hold me now

Touch me now

I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You ought know by now how much I love you

One thing you can be sure of

I'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You ought know by now how much I love you

The world may change my whole life through

But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy,

Our love will lead the way for us

Just Like a guiding star

I'll be there for you if you should need me

You don't have to change a thing

I love you just the way you are

So come with me and share the view

I'll help you see forever too

Hold me now

Touch me now

I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You ought know by now how much I love you

One thing you can be sure of

I'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You ought know by now how much I love you

The world may change my whole life through

But nothing's gonna change my love for you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You ought know by now how much I love you

One thing you can be sure of

I'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You ought know by now how much I love you

The world may change my whole life through

But nothing's gonna change my love for you...

back to BAC

Yep. Back to ranting about college life...

and everything else to keep my mind off her...

Today is the first day at college since last week's break...and I guess its not surprising to find myself searching for some piece of familiarity with my old "life-before-the-break" here at BAC. There is no better haven for suited for this little nerd's need for a peace and quiet than right here in the computer lab.

I pick a computer, grab a seat, sit down, start sipping McD tea, munch an apple pie and go about my daily routine of scouring youtube for guitar/ cs/ dot/ step videos, reading star online, and visiting blogs...

First blog that came to my mind? Hers.

Saw she had a new post! (which tempted me to post this I guess xD) Read a few lines...scrolled down a few older posts...smiled at a few pictures...but somehow I found my screen hovering above our pictures...they compelled me to look at them the more I stared.

As with all our older pictures, they have always given me a rush of mjxed emotions whenever I take just a simple glance at them. I kinda enjoy but at the same time resent the feeling of looking at us, together, close, firmly held in each other's arms as our eyes become transfixed on each other's...and as I sit here snugly tucked in my chair, bathed in the familiar glare and radiation of the hums and beeps of computer component's grinding ceaselessly against each other...I can't help but feel FAR from here.

"Out-of-place-ness" is my preferred way of putting it. Its just the kind of "I dont belong here", or "what am I doing here" or "screw this shit...I miss her" -feeling that no one really knows how to describe to this naive world who have never felt this way. The sickening, gut wrenching feeling that cooks up a hunger deep inside your soul you know nothing and no one else can cure, but the ONE OTHER SOUL in this world that feels exaclty the same about you.

I guess thats why some people describe this feeling as "living in another world"...so far...yet so close...I guess its the feeling of standing back to back...but never having the chance to look each other face to face...

Okay....I can't hold it back any longer...

I MISS YOUUUU!!!!!! T.T