Letting go.

Love can be a cruel thing, especially when someone you want to forget leaves you with more than just a memory.

In this case, she left me a piece of paper...

Since the day she gave it to me it has never left my wallet. Now its time to make sure it leaves my heart for good.

Just read it for the sake of reading it for one last time.

Its time to set myself free and open my heart for someone else to enter. Let the test begin.

First step...rid my wallet of the damn thing...

Step 2...Don't miss it.

You'll be just a friend in my mind, but not in my heart.

Step 3...stomp it out of my heart. Just something stuck at the bottom of my shoe a long time ago. Time to scrape it off.

Step 4...Get rid of it once and for all. See? Gone with the wind. The broom was just to make sure.

Phew...Goodbye little piece of paper. You have locked up my heart for a long time. Now you are gone, my heart is set free, and is beating ever so loudly again for someone else...

I AM FREE!!!!!!

*See...somethings are best left forgotten. And thats that. Forgotten.

So touching T.T

Here's the link to the story I talked about in my previous post.
The second time reading it wasn't any less touching...nor was the third...its awesome..check it out.
*PS: Its in Chinese...so, forgive me my fellow bananas :(

I will always remember the 12th of May.

Because today is the day I failed a hundred times.

What's more? I failed the same person ONE HUNDRED TIMES in A ROW in TWO HOURS.
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Sichuan, China- On this day exactly one year ago, hundreds of people lost their loved ones to an earthquake...

Today I read about a touching true story about a young couple who lost each other during this earthquake.
It talked A perfect, loving, happy young couple who's love story was destroyed. Just in a blink of an eye...
The young man and woman parted a few weeks before the earthquake...
The young woman stayed in Beijing while the young man moved to Sichuan to take care of his mother and father in-law.
They talked on the phone day and night and were always there for each other no matter what.
On the 12th of May 2008...the young woman heard of the earthquake in Sichuan...she immediately wanted to call him and scrambled for her phone...but realised it wasn't with her.
She rushed home switched on the phone and countless messages and miss calls in it. All of them we're from the young man.
In his last message...he had the dying wish of hearing her voice one last time as he was burried alive by the earthquake...
But by the time she saw this message, it was too late. He was gone...
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Exactly one year later...2 hearts find themselves torn apart...because one of them carelessly spoiled his phone, and found out it had no battery after repairing it...

On the 12th of May 2009.
There was no earthquake in Klang,
but I swear,
the old me has died today.

From today onwards. I will be a better me for you. I promise you. Everytime you call, I'll be there.

Mood: Stupidity.

Note to self: PHONES AND BATHROOMS DONT MIX!

My real mood: Excrutiating PAIN of missing someone so so so much T.T!!!

THANK YOU.

For being there for me...

Even though we're far apart...

I know I'm not alone...

Because you're right here in my heart <3.

I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!

HapPY MoThERs DaY!!!

Celebrated mothers day in church today...well anyway...kinda...

Today's sermon by Pastor Jerry was all about mother's love and how the Bible talked about how man and woman were created equally. He quoted examples from the Bible where Jesus "felt the energy flow out of him" when He was touched by a Samaritan prostitute (the lowliest of social outcasts of that time) and he healed her of her "skin desease". Quote:"...Go daughter of Abraham...your faith has made you well..." And with that P.Jerry elorated the point on how women are no less equal than men in the eyes of Jesus.
P. Jerry totally won the hearts of the ladies! XD

And before I forget this saying I heard from somewhere...Let me just post it down here incase I might not get the chance ever again.

"God created Eve from Adam's rib.

Not from his head so she can rule over him,

nor from his feet so he can trample her, but

from his side to be his constant companion,

under his arm to be protected by him,

and close to his heart to be loved by him."

So guyz...love you girls as God has made them to be loved! ^^

Anyway, back to mothersday "celebration" in church...

When P.Jerry called out the youths from our snug little corner to join our mothers and pray for them as well as give them a special gift the church youth had made, I realised this was impossible for me T.T

*PS: for those of you who know why...good...for those of you who don't its cuz my mommy's not with me...><..ok lets leave it there.

Then I think Pastor must have spotted me giving everyone else the puppy-eye-look, so he called out "Hey Gideon, don't think you can run away from this! :)" and asked me to pray for an Indian lady in the church who didn't have her children with her then (I didn't ask why). So I stood beside her and prayed for her family, her wellbeing, health, may God's grace shine through her etcetc. Not that I mind praying for a complete stranger, I don't, but nonetheless it felt completely weird...Especially when P.Jerry makes a request out of the blue like this...Anyway, I was glad I did it, and was glad she allowed me to do it so freely. Because during that prayer it trully dawned to me how badly I missed my own mom, and that prayer helped me to pour out so many feelings I had inside me for who knows how many years.

Miss my mom...!

On another topic...I finally got brave enough and asked her THE Question.

With great response!!!!! :D:D:D

But the details are our little secret. =)

For now, lets just be strong.

Though we're far apart, my heart feels closer to yours than ever... =)

Well guyz, that's all I'll be blogging for now. Its been a while since I typed so much.

I CANT WAIT TO BE BESIDE YOU!